Before I get started, may I ask: “What does birthday mean to any of you?”
Of course I have to answer this question myself first. To me, it’s just another day, an ordinary day… My family doesn’t really have the habit to celebrate this kind of so called “special occasions” to many. But this year, it was kind of special, chiefly because this was the first time I had my birthday in the country outside Singapore and Malaysia. Well again, it was still another day (maybe a slightly special one), but that’s not something which I would get too excited about, really…
Having been living in this world for quarter of a century is something I really should proud of… You might ask: “how hard can it be to be able to live more than quarter of a century? It’s not really a challenge even if it’s half a century, many has just done it without realizing it!”
Well, let me explain why…
First of all, I personally don’t think I have a very healthy lifestyle… I eat, as long as the foods that I am eating taste nice. Cholesterol, fat and whatever indexes come along with those foods are just numbers to me. As you all know, good foods normally come with very high side of these indexes; I drink without a limit sometimes, until I couldn’t take it, but I’m quitting now (trying hard); I used to drink four to five cups of coffee until one of my friends scolded me nuts for doing that (you know who you are!), now I am controlling my caffeine intake to maximum of 2 cups a day. Is that the reason why I am pretty much alive, sitting down here and crapping with you all now? 🙂
Other than things that are going into my mouth, things that are coming out from mouth could be deathly too. I can be extremely straightforward and vicious (or evil, I think this is a much appropriate word to describe it) when I am in the mood to do so. I hurt people sometimes, be it intentionally or unintentionally. I am quite pleased that I haven’t met any real bad guy that might bash me in my face yet. Also, I am quite surprised that my super hot temper hasn’t gotten me into something real big yet. I am working real hard to control it and those who know me well should know my temper is not quite explosive as I used to be anymore. I believe when ones grow older, their management skill tends to get better somehow…
In addition to mouth, hands and feet could cause problems too… Those who used to be sitting in my car before should know my driving is no slouch compare to many others on any roads and I drive quite dangerously sometimes (but still not match to tutu cars in Thailand), if I am honest. There are a couple of reasons why I am doing so- I cannot really drive slow, as I cannot maintain the car straight when I drive slow (weird, but it’s proven, to my mum); driving dangerously somehow makes me feel alive, I have a pretty dull five-boring-working-days-a-week life, this is one way to bring some thrills to my life and I enjoy doing it. Of course, I know where the limit is and I will never go beyond that; Also, nowadays many road users tend to forget the basic theory (that they have learned during driving course), violate rules and regulations or even not bringing their common sense while using the public roads, which causes me have to be delinquent sometimes just to stay away from them. They are simply too dangerous… I am glad to not getting involved in any major accident yet… To double the happiness, our dearest PM had just made a little announcement to increase the RON 95 price by 20 cents, effective the midnight of my Bday. While many people are complaining, I, on the other hand, thank him for doing that. I am now very optimistic and always look at the positive side of the issue. Since fuel price hikes is something that I cannot control, I’ll have to control my right foot. That simply means I won’t be driving at dangerous speed, and this prolongs my life indirectly. I thank him for that, truthfully! God bless him!
It seems like I have met many criteria that might make this “Living more than quarter of a century” thingy looks a bit of a challenge, but somehow somebody just came into my life and balanced it. Anyway, I think it’s about time to be mature and forgo the silly things that I have been doing in the past…
I suppose I have pretty much completed the first milestone of my life in flying color- I have completed my first degree, I have a job that I don’t hate, I have my own car called “wirari” (Proton Wira in red), I have a bunch of people whom I care and also care about me. Albeit many bad things happened along the way, I will take them as motivations for me to move forward, since I cannot rewrite the history or change things that had already happened anyway. The only part that I am still lacking of now, I guess, is a life partner, which I wish I could find “the one” real soon…
All in all, I’m blessed and I know it! 🙂